he will come

Soon it will be hammered into what she calls her silly head
That she really isn't silly but she's beautiful instead
But every time she gets a hold of something pretty, it slips away
So she keeps hoping that someday soon

He will come. He will come
He will comfort all that's hardened
Change the deserts into gardens
And we all will see His face.
He will come. He will come.
He will soften all the starkness
Break the chambers of our darkness
And we'll all be overwhelmed

She spilled her coffee in her Chevy on the way to work at 8:05
She always thought that she was clumsy and she hated it and wondered why
She can handle any tragedy that happens but not little things like this
So she keeps hoping that someday soon

He will come, He will come
He will comfort all that's hardened
Change the deserts into gardens
And we all will see his face
He will come, he will come
He will soften all the starkness
Break the chambers of our darkness
And we'll all be overwhelmed

Within the world of a girl, the words she hears they mean an awful lot
And the music in her mind when she gets older has the lyrics she was taught
And when she gets to heaven all the right things will be said
And He will look on her with favor

He will come, He will come
He will comfort all that's hardened
Change the deserts into gardens
And we all will see his face
He will come, he will come
He will soften all the starkness
Break the chambers of our darkness
And we'll all be overwhelmed

He will come, He will come
He'll remove his flaming garment
Place it on the lowest harlot
And we all will see His face
He will come, He will come
All you watchmen lift your voices
Then every boy and girl rejoices
When we'll all be overwhelmed

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i've been looking for music for baby to put on a little ipod i've had since highschool- and i re-discovered the band Waterdeep. i used to listen to them in highschool, circa 12 years ago. and i'm not usually much for christian music these days- i just can't find any i like. it's not from lack of trying. but oh my. 

do you know when you read a book in highschool and you thought you knew what it was about, but then ten years later you read it again and suddenly you understand it? that's like what has happened to me this week with Waterdeep's cd Everyone's Beautiful. i mean i'm just weeping through the entire thing. 

and i keep thinking- i heard these songs 12 years ago. how did i not hear and understand? oh dear little good christian sarah rocking out to your christian music, so good at doing what you are taught and putting on a perfect show, with no idea what any of it really means or what it requires. 

i'm excited and terrified to raise up a little one from birth teaching him these things. it was so different from how i was raised. but if he ever can really grasp even a small portion of the love of Christ by the time he leaves my care, then i think i will have done all i can do. forget behaving or potty training or homeschooling, forget daily bible study or church on sundays- those things are all great and good. but if he fully believes he is loved by Christ he will be 1000x's happier and at peace in this life. everything else takes a backseat. everything else matters so much less. what is success anyway? it's all relative. but if you really believe that you are truly loved, accepted, freed & forgiven- it doesn't matter if you are a millionaire or if you work at starbucks, you're going to be happy and at peace in your life. 

it's hard because i'm learning this for the first time since about a year ago. and i don't think i'll ever 'arrive' in it. but this is what i want for our family. to know and believe and live God's love, and to give it to others unconditionally. starting first with our little baby.