best happenings}
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| cuppincakes |
also, yesterday was a good day because it was sunny in the morning and i made strawberry cupcakes for B- to celebrate her last day of work before maternity leave! baking almost always makes me happy- because there is the bowl to lick and then cake at the end. and i love B and it's fun to hatch surprises for her.
learning}
our our friends in bellevue have been so kind and loving as we are learning and transitioning into parenthood. it's been so great to be able to talk with moms of 4+ kids about my fears, ask a billion questions and receive grace-filled answers. i've felt nervous about talking about some of my fears of parenting, mostly because people are so opinionated about it and i don't really know anyone who parents like we want to parent. so there's a lot of fear there. a lot of what if our child turns out horribly??? but it's been encouraging to learn that the relationship that i cultivate with my children is the most important thing- not behavior, not rules, not education. but relationship. that my children know me and know who i am and what i struggle with. how i deal with my struggles. how i talk to God. how i talk and struggle with friends. with loving people. how i apologize when i'm wrong. those are the things that are going to teach my child how to love and follow Christ. and everything else is secondthirdfourth. and yes, there is a time for discipline-- for training and turning. but i hope that in those moments i can truly correct them in love and not fear. spend long hours fighting their rage with them because i love them, not because i'm afraid of what people will say if they see their rage, their mess, their glaring imperfection that is now made mine.
new things}
i had a massive melt down two weeks ago thinking of ALL THAT NEEDS TO BE DONE! before baby boy is born. but C helped me tremendously and suggested that i proceed with a 'brain dump'- so i sat there with him and listed out allthethings that needed to be done while he typed them out and then we went through and scheduled time to do all the things.
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| whalen in construction |
so this week i've managed to get back into a semi-habit of meal making. which is a major score. my brain has been hardpressed to return to my normal meal making routine. but this week i've made 3 dinners so far and we've had leftovers! yessss
also, i made a stuffed whale for littleman this week. we affectionately call him 'whalen'. he might end up being a narwhal- i want to add a horn to him soon, but i've yet to find the right fabric.
today i might make some mountain pillows for littleman as well. and maybe a cloud pillow later. and i still have to finish the baby blanket i'm knitting for him. it's slow going. oh how nice it will be to be done with all the sewing/knitting projects! they are tedious. but maybe when they are done it will be nice out and i can start the Real projects- painting and spray painting and picture hanging. the babyroom is on hold for now until nicer weather permits some outdoor building/painting projects!
news on the liquid front}
the website is up! and the product is in use by several beta testers, but it won't be released for wide use for a few more weeks when they can arrange for a monthly payment system. also, on march 6, C and J will be showing their product to 150+ investors- so we are hoping that will go splendidly!
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i know i need to update on babythings! and i will! i have an appointment on monday, so i will update after that!


yay an update! luckily parenting is something that can (and sort of has to be?) learned on the job. the longer i've been a parent, the more i've realized that my ideals and reality do not always match up, ha--and i'm not nearly as opinionated on how things MUST BE DONE as i was when i was pregnant, or a mom of one baby, or even the mom of a toddler and one baby. it is a humbling experience. i'm thankful that ultimately it is not up to me to be enough for them and to "do a good enough job" but that God will fill in the gaps and make up for what i'm lacking. as he always does!
ReplyDeleteah yes! i love what you said about 'it's not up to me to be enough for them'-- because i definitely feel that worrisome tug often. i know i'm not enough, that i will never be enough. but in my best moments, when i can remember that God IS enough for them, i can relax and be thankful for the grace that is given to me. in spite of myself!
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