four months!

height: 25 inches

weight: 13lbs, 10oz

you are getting so big! you have discovered your hands and look at them like they are the most fascinating thing as you open and close them. you have just started to laugh-- little heeeh heeeh heeeh's, but no giggling or squealing yet. you really ham it up for the ladies, smiling so big and then getting 'shy' and hiding your face. everyone who sees you says you are so handsome, and they wonder at your bright blue eyes. you are drooling all over the place. you are very grabby these days and momma has to watch out for her hair and jewelry! you are getting good at holding your head up, though it's still a bit wobbly. you HATE your bumbo and tummytime with the fiery fire of a thousand burning suns. we go for walks every evening with you, and you love to feel the cool breeze in your hair. you also love to look at the trees. bathtime is exciting-- you are almost too big for your tub! but you love to splash around in the warm water, as long as you've eaten first! we have found you on your side in your crib several times, and expect you will be rolling over soon! you are also starting to suck your pointer finger(s), though momma is trying her best to put a stop to it! you love it when momma claps your hands together fast and says "yaaaayyyy!!!" and you also love playing peek-a-boo with daddy.

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we have enjoyed these last weeks. getting into a routine and soaking up every day and every week that doesn't have a doctor visit. they are getting more and more spread out! we are so thankful. his next appointments are on nov.4-- we will know then if he will need to continue on the seizure meds. the doctors don't seem concerned about his night terrors-- which seem to be becoming less and less intense. we are hopeful that they will diminish entirely eventually. we had a really traumatic encounter with his neurosurgeon, in which he proceeded to tell us all that was even possibly wrong with solomon and then talk about possible brain/head surgeries. then he said, "we can go ahead and schedule the surgery or wait to see if he even needs it." ummmmm let's wait?! i couldn't believe how unfeeling he was. he just took us on a crazy emotional roller coaster...i cried for the rest of the day. after that, i was so DONE with doctors, and i'm glad that i have a whole month to recover and get up the braveness to go back there. i just want to scoop him up and whisk him to the middle of nowhere where he can grow up a normal little boy with no one peering at him and analyzing every detail and symptom. our days are just like anyone else's-- except he has medicine twice a day. i am so thankful for the doctors who saved his little life. but i don't appreciate knife-happy neurosurgeons with bad bedside manner. the reality of it is, he probably won't need any surgeries. it is still way too early to tell. and i just need to take this one day at a time. or else i won't survive it. my heart can't take it-- worrying about minute possible surgeries years from now. i need help getting through today.

we are excited to see granna&papa this next weekend! it will be a nice pre-christmas visit. we are enjoying this season of no-travel and are soaking the fall weather in. my spirit really needed this-- i'm in desperate need of emotional rest. C as well. this year of entrepreneurship and new babies and sick babies and postpartum hormone crazy has taken a ravaging toll on us. i feel like until now we were just hanging on, trying to survive. and now the dust is settling some and we are learning to live again. it is rough-- learning what it means to love each other now. what it means to love solomon. as always, we covet your prayers. we are so thankful to have all of you who love us so well.